you wanna sex?

The sex of a fetus is determined after the first 6 weeks of it's development in the placenta.  Simply put, according the the most conclusive studies so far performed if the embryo should develop into a male the corresponding steps begin after 6 weeks inside the placenta.  If at this time no steps towards maleness occur, female is the objective sex of the fetus.

So, our sex appears to be a question of timing.

In cattle there have been cases in which twins are born and one of the them is a male and the other is a female and male. (Cherfas, Gribbin - The Redundant Male, pg 51 - 52)  Basically a hermaphrodite calf.  The explanation is simple and it makes me wonder a very interesting thing.  Since maleness is expressed before femaleness, sometimes in the case of twins, the hormones of a male twin invade the placenta of the female twin and cause it to develop male characteristics.  Here is where I think timing plays an interesting factor.  What if there is a direct correlation between the amount of time an X/Y chromosome  is tardy in enacting its sex-defining agents to how drastic the opposing sexual features are shown in the finished body of the organism.

roll with me.  I am a fetus inside a placenta.  I am still in the pre-6-week period before my sex is defined but let's say I am to become a male.  The 6 week period comes and my Y chromosome is supposed to kick in and start making my a male but WHAT!!!  it doesn't.  It just chills from some kind of genetic miscommunication.  Well since genes can't directly communicate to each other there is no way the Mrs. X chromosome would ever know that Mr. Y is derping right?  All it knows is that Y isn't doing it's thing so it views the dormancy as a sign that it should jump in and make the fetus a female.  This isn't too much to imagine right?  But if you remember I am supposed to become a male meaning Mr. Y still has a job to do.  Suddenly Mr Y wakes up.  "WOH!!  Slow down baby!!!  this fetus is a male, step aside as I assess the damage!!!"  Now here is the crucial part.  Depending on how long, the literal amount of time Mrs. X  had with the hormonal manipulation of the fetus before Mr. Y takes control of the helm, the eventual human the fetus develops into could be anywhere from an feminine male to a homosexual male to a hermaphrodite male.

My logic (which is incredibly impudent on this particular subject) says that the lesser amount of time would result in a male true to every physiological sense of the word, but with a personality that is more feminine.  Then as the time expands the psychological effect of the male worsens until he actually becomes a women in a male body with all the penal desires that come with her.  If time prolongs even more Mrs. X might finish her work on the mind and starts to actually change the physical make up of the body by giving it female genitalia etc.

Now here are some problems I immediately see with my theory.

1st - I am assuming Mrs. X starts to work on the genes that develop the mind first, and then the body.   This is incredibly rash.  It is more possible that there is no set path.  The X chromosome goes to work on the genes responsible for sex development in a random fashion which could be a reason for such a diverse array of interpersonal sexual confusion when there is a chronological miscommunication.

2nd - I know that the X chromosome has many other genes that aid in the development of a fetus aside from simply determining it's sex, but the Y chromosome does not.  As far as my knowledge has dug, the Y chromosome only encodes that the fetus be a male, but doesn't effect any other part of it's development except for some stray hairs.  This makes me think that the X chromosome plays a crucial role in the entire sexual development of both male and female, and the Y chromosome only dictates that the X chromosome assure that it's particular fetus develop a penis and not a vagina.  Also the fact that all males have a partner X chromosome to their Y could mean that the after the Y chromosome communicates to the genes at the 6 week period to start making a male he could hand the mic over to the X chromosome for the remainder of sexual development.  I mean, the X chromosome seems to have no other genetic power so this might be it's only option.  This means that the X chromosome has the biggest part of the sexual development of a fetus so of course some mistakes like whether to make a penis or not, how much estrogen/testosterone should be given etc could easily happen because the Y chromosome can't check up on things.

comfort

Them laws of correlation sure are a trip.  They make a raped old man smell like a freshly baked baby.

Here is where I am ----  depth of mind > directly correlated with > breadth of comfort.


The reflections of this are found in all facets throughout all time.

In history - periods when people developed their minds the most through art, food, torture etc. were when that people were comfortably well off.

In place - locations where minds are most easily developed and expressed are in those of a higher level of comfort.

In species - Organisms that exude the most highly articulated minds are also those that reside in the most comfort.


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In history - renaissance, Industrial age, today.

In place - fact that most countries that revolutionize any median are already well developed.  Japan, Korea = electronics.  America = internet.  Great Britain = science.

In species - how much to does a bee work compared to a human?



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I also had a thought about how all our personalities are the same thing, just different shade of color.  We all desire comfort.  Our personalities are all comfort, and they only show their unique colors with how we do 2 things.  1 - what we desire to do that we can only do in a comfortable situation, e.g. read a book.  and 2 - what we desire to do that is in contrast to this comfortable situation. e.g. sleep on the side of a cliff.

And so it seems our entire lives are spent maintaining this comfort, because only in a comfortable state can we we do these 2 things.

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could there possibly be a correlation with the actual size of ones homes to the depth of their personality?  So could the majority of shallow people live in small homes?

As a child would

The key to true second by second life enjoyment is also the key to long term despair.  It is a habit that we evolve out of in transition from child to adult.  It is what we try to embrace once again in transition from adult to elder.

The key is to not have goals.  Goals block our ability to embrace the moment with true unadulterated pleasure and curiosity because they force our mind into a one way tunnel where we can't see the joy in things that pass by because they don't seem to have any relation to us.

Simple example, I meet my girlfriend and I have a goal to have sex.  This may not seem to be a goal because of its natural state of necessity, but it is.  I see her and all I think of is how to get closer to my goal of sex.  Every touch of her hair, and sniff of her skin is made not to simply experience those sensations, they are to bring us closer physically.  It doesn't matter what is happening around me, if it doesn't explicitly show how I can get closer to my goal it will be ignored.
I use sex as an example to illustrate how this practice of goal making is so successful that it has been ingrained into our psychological makeup.  We differ from other animals simply with the ability to set and complete subjective goals.  This ability could very well be the reason we have progressed economically and socially as organically cohesive beings .  It could be the reason our brains have evolved into such a form unique from our animal counterparts.  But also this could be the reason we no longer smell the roses.

If you have a goal in your head (which we do 100% of the time) it makes it very difficult to enjoy anything that might not be apart of that goal.  This can be seen in the most unsuspecting of times.  Even while watching a movie, we set and follow goals constantly.  Goals, for example, of trying to understand the movie, see where the story is going, etc.  In doing this, lots of things go past our eyes and minds because they simply don't fit into where we think our goal is trying to take us.  A passive expression.  A goofball in the background.  Lots of artistic nuances, lots of little touches that don't play a crucial role in our goal's eye go overlooked.

It seems the majority of our daily distress and hardship comes from events that we consider in contrast to our goals.  Even listening to someone talk can be a chore if we can't seem to understand the purpose of the conversation.  Relationships, in all their forms, only seem to be successful if the partners have the same goals.  Even this article is chore to write because I still don't have a concrete goal for it.  This habit of goal making is so important to us as humans that we spend our childhood learning how to do this and aren't considered grown up until we do it well.

But every day there are things happening around us constantly that are beautiful and mind mesmerizing, and that go completely unnoticed because our face is stuck in a box.  Why are children so easily entertained?  Because they don't care about being entertained.  They just take whatever comes their way and see it for what it naturally is.  Not for what our tunnel-visioned goal-burdened eye wants to see.  We need to have goals to make progress in our daily lives, but we can't let them control how we see our daily lives.

why not death?

The only thing we can do as a creature of this Earth is what we want to do.  Our desires back every single action we do  (The explanation for this can be found here)  Therefore our only purpose as a human is to do what you want.

With this as our defition of what is to be Human, there is NEVER a time in our life we should NOT die.  It is OKAY to die at anytime in our life because at every moment in our life we are fulfilling our purpose.  So if we were to die at any given moment, we will have died in a state of complete life fulfillment.

So why do we fight for life with such vigor?  Why are humans such Champions at not giving up?

Well various reasons.

I could go the bitter route and say it is because we are mentally manipulated by our culture to believe we have a high purpose, like curing something, or eating the biggest hamburger ever made, or HAHAHAAHA!!!! finding love, and until we have fulfilled that purpose we must not give up the ghost.

But I think the common route is usually the truest.  Most of the time in our communalatative lives as humans, death is just an option being weighed on the scale of everything else in our life.  And death when compared to marraige, or having children, or getting high is just not as attractive.  Simply because we don't know what death tastes like, while we know what a kiss does.  Familiarity is naturally more attractive than obsurity.  Of course it is, if it wasn't there would only be a cafe latte, not machiatto/cappuccino/mocha chinchilanga.  Humans probably would have gone extinct a long time ago if we were only satisfied with the unknown.  So selection deemed it successful for us to choose the common over the uncommon.

So you could say humans are fighters, or you could just say humans stubbornly desire comfort.

This all just looks so funny in the light shown from my first few sentences.

Since there is NO reason for a human to NOT die (according to my definition), It is OK to die at anytime.  Yet what keeps us alive?  The possibility of a beer on your front porch.  A hike in a mountain.  A bug in your mouth.  A conversation with your Mum.  and the list goes on.

Sciencion

Science is just another religion, but amongst the mainstream it is doing the best job at it.  I shall not only make this claim, but also back it up.

The word Religion comes from the Latin word "reli" which means "please place your lips around my anal cavity and suck" and the greek word "gion" which means "if you are not full, do it again".......Using etymology to back up your shit reeeeeeeally bugs me.  If you make a claim, don't hide behind meanings that were established by cultures that are currently dead or having more sex than a horny bunny mounted by a lion.  State your claim and use your own shit to back it up.  How do you use your own shit?  Well you eat some food.....wait about 4 hours, and replace the toilet with your hand.  HAHAHAHA!!!!!!

Religion, as I claim to define it, is when things congregate to understand and improve their mortal condition.  Now the definition of improve here will always be up for debate, so I will define it as however you want to understand it.  Regardless to how you define it, science is doing it better than mainstream religion and here is one way how.

In the bible of science,  in the book of "The Origin of Species", on page 122 of the chapter "organization tends to advance", in the top of verse 6, the God of this particular sect of science, Charles Darwin, chastises one of his disciples, Herbert Spencer.  Disciple Spencer says in a claim to knowledge regarding the answerless question of how differentiation of physiological labor could have arisen from such simple organic beings "that  homologous units of any order become differentiated in proportion as their relations to incident forces become different" .  Our Lord and Savior Darwin rebuttals with "but as we have no facts to guide us, speculation on the subject [how differentiation of physiological labor arose]is almost useless".  Then in the very next sentence the Almighty Darwin makes a huge contradictory claim. "It is, however, an error to suppose [speculate] that there would be no struggle for existence , and, consequently, no natural selection, until many forms had been produced"  The Holy Saint of the Grail of Genes makes a speculation using his own theory right after he shuns his disciple Spencer for making speculations. This could be omitted, or even ignored if our Christ Darwin in all his glory didn't make this utterance at the end of the same paragraph, "no one ought to feel surprise at much remaining as yet unexplained on the origin of species, if we make due allowance for our profound ignorance on the mutual relations of the inhabitants of the world at the present time, and still more so during past ages".

Isn't that why we speculate?  because we don't know, but want to know.  We have a limited amount of knowledge about something and desire to know more, so we speculate about a possible answer, test it and see if the result survives the barrage of scrutiny that will undoubtedly come.  Weren't all laws and ideas we consider facts today at one point some person's speculation?  Newton's first law of physics was at one point just speculation, then after much testing and doubting; possibly some temporary abandonment, and of course centuries of effective implementation, we have agreed that it is no longer a speculation but a law.

Our All-knowing, Omniscient Darwin has just told us to NOT bother with speculation, except if it is with an idea he created.  That seems kinda haughty and self-righteous. That seems very God-like indeed.

F@$#%CK!

I think this will be something i will take to my grave.......tomorrow.  I can't imagine a world where this idea is understood and accepted for all the logic that it clearly demonstrates.

The title I will leave for the emotionally retarded to interpret because I firmly believe any form of emotional output is by nature retarded.  Emotions are continuously in a retarded state of progression and therefore anything born from them is as such retarded..

It would be sooooooo stupid for anyone to judge another persons actions based on those of someone else.  No one would arrest me for a crime my ancestor of 200 hundred years go commited.  Yet every fuckin time we place our emotions onto things we or someone does we are doing just that.  And we can't help it.  We can't do anything but this.  This is how we define our humanity......even our individuality.   therefore I deem our emotional selves as retarded.  We are slow.  We still don't get it.

When we were fetuses we had no feelings.  We had our natural disposition, our subconscious, that was allotted to us genetically upon conception from our parents.  Not until our senses matured to a state capable of interacting with the outside world was this subconscious able to communicate with our conscious whats going on.  These communications are what eventually form into what we call our feelings. But these communications are always one way, and require an external experience with which our senses can interact.  This means our feelings are products of our subconscious sitting there waiting for shit to happen in the world that will allow it to communicate to our conscious what its about.  That is sloooooooooooooooow.  That's why our feelings are always changing throughout our entire life because it takes forever for life to provide enough experiences for our subconscious to use to communicate to us whats up.

To state it plainly, the feelings you express today are ancient relics of communication your subconscious made with your conscious from experiences your had with the world since you began to feel, see, hear, taste and touch.

There was, in no one's life, a moment where they just discovered something new.  This is because, as I stated above, we have been who we are since our parent's sex cells formed us.  Then once our 5 senses matured enough, we started the process of life and communication from subconscious to conscious commenced.  To believe otherwise would mean you could have the feeling of "like" for something, say coffee, without having first smelled, tasted, seen, heard and/or touched it.  To believe such an experience is possible is ridiculous.  To fantasize and entertain such experiences as possible is just another feeling that was developed by the process stated above.

We are each a canvas already painted by someone else's sperm and egg, that is trying to expose itself to the world by the slow process of life.  We are NOT an empty white canvas that is being painted by the slow process of life.

With this logic it can be understood that every emotional reaction we have in life is simply ourselves remembering past experiences in which our subconscious communicated to us the current emotion we are feeling.  This means that when you see someone kill another person and you feel bad, you are not actually feeling bad about that experience, because that experience is new and as such completely detached from you, you are recalling all the past experiences that are even the most distantly related to what you are experiencing now and are placing the reactions you had THEN with the NOW.  In other words, you are judging the NOW with your PAST.  So say for example in your PAST someone killed you mother; The feeling communicated then could be in many forms: hatred, despair, depression, or whatever of the millions of words we have invented to describes our feelings in all their complex forms.  SO when you experience anything similar to this particular past event, you simply regurgitate all your past events and place them judgmentally onto the present one, regardless to the actual situation at hand.  The person committing the killing could be doing it in self defense after being raped or beaten.  

Now, we have evolved a bit from this blatantly ignorant place of judgment.  We assess situations better than before, we listen and try to understand things before we place judgement.  We have developed entire systems with the single end of assuring that facts were presented and decisions were made with the least amount of emotional sway as possible.  But it seems all this evolving have happened on a social level, NOT personal.  As individuals we still hold onto our emotional prejudices.  So much that we even call them our individuality; our PERSONality.  We approach our girlfriends who want to look at our phones with the feeling anger not because the act of looking at a phone in itself is worthy to cause anger, but because we have had many similar experiences in the past and we reacted the same way.  And the girlfriend asking to see her boyfriend's phone is not because he is intrinsically disloyal but because she also had many similar experiences in her past and this is how she reacted to them.

Now why is the understanding of this important?  Let me restate the beginning.  Why would we undoubtedly say that blaming someone for the actions of there ancestors is stupid yet blame our current boyfriends or girlfriends for actions of past boyfriends/girlfriends.  

There are many things to be considered here before any of what I said can hold any water.  usually girlfriends who want to look at boyfriend's phones do so because they see their boyfriend do things similar to what their past boyfriends did; Boyfriends who ACTUALLY did cheat.  But also it is possible that a boyfriend getting angry for a girlfriend looking at his phone is not because he has anything to hide but because he also has had many girlfriends in the past who did the same and he dislikes invasions of privacy.  The point is that ANY situation is possible BECAUSE NO ONE IS THE SAME!!!!  The results are as diverse as the subjects participating, and since every single subject is unique, EVERY result has the potential to be equally so.  SO it makes NO sense to keep judging every experience in life with your old-ass feelings, IF you truly comprehend this logic.

If you always see your past in the present you will never have a future.

Fate: debunked

If you can imagine a stick, you can understand fate.

But more of that later.

Think of a washing machine.  How does the water get in there?  How do the clothes get clean?  Where does the soap go?  These are all complicated questions that no one can answer.  But if you take the machine apart, break it down to its bare naked basics, and then try put it back to together, you will have a better idea of how it works.

Using chracteristics common among the populus, we can do the same thing with words that tend to have the same mysterious ambiguity as a washing machine.  Thing is, this process helps us understand them better, which in turn strips them of their mystical powers which is why I think a general dislike of doing this has naturally spread memetically throughout the populus.  There seems to be a comfort people have with willingly being ignorant about certain things and hiding it with fun little words like mysterious, secret, and purple.   Not knowing is more romantic.  I fully agree.  Which is why I have a girlfriend.

Now let's take the word Fate and strip it of its wings.

First we must point out the commonality that tags along every fateful experience throughout our organic world.  I venture to say that before most fateful experiences, there is a general state of confusion. (although I believe there could be other emotions, I choose confusion because it applys to me the best)  But I think the preceding degree of confusion is what determines the classification "fateful" of the event that follows.

This is where the stick comes in.

Picture a stick, perfectly horizontal (parallel to something......like your life). 

This stick represents our life.  In its horizontal state, it means our life is fine.  There is a balance with everything going on.  Therefore all events happening to us in that state are considered normal, desired, or expected.  There are few surprises, and the ones that do happen do not shake us in a "fateful" way.  There is a reason for this which I will explain later.

Then sometimes our life becomes unbalanced.  The reason could be of many.  You become frustrated with meeting the right guy.  Your confusion increases more and more with every new incapable guy you meet.  At some point your frustration starts consuming more of the natural emotional balance in your life.  Eating away until it's bloated weight causes your nice balanced life to tip over.

This could be translated as the stick below.

Balance has been lost due to your frustration's obesity.  Once balance is lost our natural reaction is to always regain it.  That's why cats always land on their feet, and we swing our arms.  We search for, reach for, scrape for some way to get the balance back.  We go to doctors, talk to friends, believe in a God, believe in ourselves.....believe......that the balance will come back.  We believe because it does.  Balance always comes back.  Something happens in our life that shows us the way to restore balance.  These events happen all the time, but only when our balance is off by such a degree that when our life swings back into place we feel the momentum of the swing do we call the event or series of events that triggered it "fateful".  So with a life similar to the stick pictured above, any balance restoring event will not be considered 'fateful' because the original degree of unbalance is not severe enough to allow for any movement to be felt.  To illustrate:  you are confused about what to wear for a date.  You like the guy but don't know how much, You wanna be comfortable, but also want to express that it is a special occasion.  You decide to wear skinny fit pants because they exude some level of sexy but also allow you to dance freely without showing off your muffin.  Just a normal event in a normal day.  You were confused a little bit with what kind of clothes to wear in conjunction with how you feel towards a guy and you decided on pants.  You continue on with your life without a second thought about what just transpired  Nothing fateful here.

but if the original amount of emotion is heavy enough you might have a life like the stick below.  The restoration of balance from this position will surely be felt.  Events of this magnitude are usually considered "fateful".

This can be illustrated by a continuation of our previous example.  You finally meet up with your date.  You are immediately impressed by his style.  His swoopy emo-hairstyle and depressing combination of colors are just what you like.  As the night goes on, with every conversation you discover something new you both have in common.  You both tried to commit suicide the same way.  You both hate your step-father but can't help but love your mom who you think is pathetic.  You both have fantasied about dissecting a puppy.  By the end of the night you are madly in love.  

You consider these events fateful because before you had met this man, you had set unbalance on your life by over-inflating your desire to meet the right guy with constant dreams of what kind of guy would make you happy and constant talks with you friends about all the guys in your life you currently hate/like.  Once you meet this guy, the connections you make with him causes a full life swing back into balance with such force that the only way to describe it is with the word 'fate'.

'Fate" is simply a word we use to describe something that restores balance to a life whose degree of unbalance was great enough that upon restoration, caused the momentum to be emotionally felt.